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MEMOIRS
Captive (Jan 2020)
“I just want to get better and see the stars and believe in hope again.”
Captive, Madeline Dyer’s first poetry collection, is based on the therapy writings she produced when she was experiencing psychosis and OCD due to Autoimmune Basal Ganglia Encephalitis, a rare type of brain inflammation caused by the immune system attacking the brain. While her communication skills and cognitive abilities diminished due to the effects of the inflammation, she was able to share her thoughts and emotions via the written word, a process that gave her great comfort when she otherwise felt possessed.
Captive provides readers with a glimpse of her tormented mind during this dark time of loneliness, loss, and fear.
PRAISE FOR CAPTIVE
“Madeline Dyer’s poetry collection, Captive, is an invitation to the reader to consider the cost of physical illness on the mind and spirit. The poems are a conversation between the speaker, the outer world, and her inner tormentor: sometimes beetle, sometimes monster, sometimes friend, of her mind. Dyer’s speaker, who sees herself as one “among all the crying girls” speaks mantras in triplicate and escalating parallels, pausing over the heartbreak of good days, the desire to touch and be touched, and the agony of it all.”– Sherre Vernon, author of The Name is Perilous and Green Ink Wings.
“Brutally honest and brilliant, this collection takes the reader through the experience of living with a crumbling mind. From the first unexplainable visions to the fight within, and the constant struggle to be heard, Dyer’s poetry is a cry out to the world suffused with raw emotion. A captivating and eye-opening experience.”– S.E. Anderson, author of the Starstruck Saga
Release date: 14th January 2020
Publisher: Ineja Press
ebook ISBN: 9781912369126
Paperback ISBN: 9781912369133
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And the audiobook of Captive is coming soon! It’s narrated by Shelley Salter and the estimated release is Spring 2021.
ARTICLES & PERSONAL ESSAYS
A selection of her most popular articles and personal essays can be found below:
- “What OCD is Like For Me” (Medium, May 2019)
- “Terrified of my Pets: My OCD Story” (Medium, May 2019)
- “I Thought Antidepressants Would Dull My Creativity” (Medium, May 2019)
- “A Letter to my OCD” (Medium, May 2019)
- “The Neuropsychiatric Illness You Haven’t Heard Of” (The Break Down Wake Up Journal, Medium, June 2019)
- “Brain Under Attack” (Invisible Illness, Medium, June 2019)
- “Why I Need to Tell My Story” (The Break Down Wake Up Journal, Medium, June 2019)
- “Why It’s So Hard To Get a Diagnosis of PANS” (Invisible Illness, Medium, June 2019)
- “Why I Use Writing to Heal” (Writing Heals, Medium, June 2019)
- “Why I’m Not Setting Myself Work Goals” (The Break Down Wake Up Journal, Medium, June 2019)
- “The Relief of a Diagnosis” (Demystifying/Challenging Challenges, Medium, June 2019)
- “Writing About Your Mental Health Makes You Vulnerable” (The Break Down Wake Up Journal, Medium, June 2019)
- “It’s Going to Get Worse (A Letter to my Past Self)” (The Obscured, Medium, June 2019)
- “Why Failure isn’t a Bad Thing” (1-One-Infinity, Medium, June 2019)
- “The Guinea Pig Who Motivated Me in My Recovery from Chronic Brain Inflammation” (Feel Heal Share, Medium, June 2019)
- “The Guinea Pig Who’s Helping Me to Recovery from Brain Inflammation” (1-One-Infinity, Medium, June 2019)
- “This is my Brain on OCD” (Human Parts, July 2019)
- “The Fear Still Amazes Me: Life With PANS, a Neuropsychiatric Disorder” (The Obscured, Medium, July 2019)
- “Writing About My Mental Health is Scary” (Medium, July 2019)
- “I Hide My OCD” (Medium, July 2019)
- “Please Believe Me When I Say There’s No Cure for My Chronic Illness” (Medium, July 2019)
- “Exposure Therapy is Both the Best and Worst Thing I Can Do for my OCD” (The Obscured, Medium, July 2019)
- “The Underlying Ableism Behind Writing Advice” (1-One-Infinity, Medium, August 2019)
- “Managing PANS-OCD with Exposure and Response Prevention Therapy” (The Obscured, Medium, August 2019)
- “How Did I Get Here? A Story of Brain Inflammation” (Medium, August 2019)
- “My Other Self” (Medium, August 2019)
- “Being Chronically Ill is Not Fun” (The Break Down Wake Up Journal, Medium, August 2019)
- “All My Writing is Therapy Writing” (Writing Heals, Medium, August 2019)
- “When Doctors Say You Need to Relapse: More Awareness for PANS is Vital” (The Obscured, Medium, August 2019)
- ““Being Cold is Being Safe” — How I Became Terrified of a Blanket” (Medium, August 2019)
- “Unmedicated” (Medium, August 2019)
- “Ten Things Not to Say to a Chronically Ill Person” (The Break Down Wake Up Journal, Medium, September 2019)
